it was culture module and we were working in the library during breakout.

WHILE THEY WORKED THEIR ARSES OFF, WE CAM-WHORED :P




MY HUMBLE LUCNCH, SPICKY WEDGES AND STRAWBERRY MILKSHAKE.




RACHELLE'S AND SAM'S ROMANTIC LUNCH SHARING SESSION AT CAFE GALILEE.










PARIS HILTON AND NICOLE RICHIE DOING THEIR 'THING' EH?







HEY PARIS, WHAT WERE YOU DOING?





JUST ONE KISS...PRETTY PRETTY PLEASE SAM?




"READY GIRLS? OKAY!" CHEERLEADING BABYYY!





WE LIKE SMALL TALK.










WHAT WERE THEY THINKING?

my favourite girl :)

samantha & i CAM-WHORING IN,OUT & DURING meetings.

music: bon jovi: thank you for loving me

ive been listening to slow, sad love songs over and over again.
yea, they always said that it would make you feel worst, but i beg to difer.
it brings back fond memories and most of all, it helps me cry it all out.

why'd you gotta be the one who makes me feel unpretty now?
im trying to do all the right things nowadays.
i swim it all out.
doing laps up and down the pool and flashbacks of memories still come to mind.
why babe?

i tell dexter that i find it hard to go to work.
why?
when i see my locker, i see you. the cute lil' care bear you made for me still remains. the pictures we took are still stuck to it too. I arranged them babe. I made them look pretty.
i dont wanna tell others how the fairytale ended.
it cuts like a knife and i tear.

i loved you.
did you see that right?
i wonder.

baby baby, do you know how i feel?

saved as southpark in my cell phone and in my heart.
funny how we met.

one thing i said i would never forget...
[ on the cell phone with you at plaza singapore.
k: where are you, i cant see you.
me: look up and you'll see me.]
you literally looked right up to the ceiling.
that got me rolling over with laughter.
babe, i remember.

i guess i hadn't understood at the beginning.
i guess i was protecting you in the wrong way.
you hadn't liked it, you hadn't seen the good of it all.
now it's all gone.
babe, i'll still remember.

i dont remember lying no more for i had treasured what we had.
why'd you have to loose faith in me.
i may never know.

no amount of heartfelt words will work on you no more.
not even if i fall down on my knees and cry.




why'd i have to get myself hurt again?
ive been putting on a mask.
that's what an actor does best. have i mastered that skill all too well?
today, i want to be alone under the stars. maybe the silent night can calm my nerves.

southpark no more.

RP's cheeringleading totally "rock".

POWER.
i heard about it from my friends.
and so i made an effort to lift my butt from the chair and comfort of my classroom to go to the agora at 1pm to catch the cheerleading performance.
i was DAMN excited LOR and i could hardly stay calm at all.
and at last i saw it with my OWN EYES.
there it was right before me...RP's very own JIGGLY PUFFS!!!...ooppss..i meant..erm...SEXIST, HOTTEST and not to mention COOLEST cheerleaders.
shucks! i hadn't brought my camera to school today if not i would have taken wonderful shots of the JIGGLY PUFFS.
HAHAHAHA!!!
it was really hilarious LA.
i mean they were so "YEA YEA...GO RP GO RP...(of course in their "squeakest and sweetest" voices.)
they were so "i am totally like those cool cheerleader in the states."
when of course, they were far from them. like totally.
anyway, i guess i have to give them credits also la.
after all, they were erm...NEW.
WELL DONE JIGGLY PUFFS!
I LIKE TOTALLY LOVE THE OUTFIT AND THE TUMMIES :))

after work on a sunday night.

while in the sentosa yellow line bus out to the departure centre, jeremy, binghui, gabby and i decided to have some fun. cam whoring always works. HAHAHA :)

my locker at work.

music: justin timerlake: losing my way

time check it says 2:02pm on my lappy.
the end of breakout two and the start of meeting three.
enterprise module and we have another facilitator today.
wow, she's wearing a pretty little elegant dress and carrying a LV tote bag baby!
not mentioning, she speaks with a slang and hmm...maybe it's impressive :)
anyway, alouis team is presenting now. the guy is speaking.
goodness xD

sam, paris and I were talking about going shopping soon one day.
i can hardly wait eh.

christmas is coming and tis' the season to be jolly!!!
i gotta get my wish list ready!!!
wwhhoooo...........

bikini high.

ive got myself a hot new red and white stripped bikini which apparently, my boyfriend isnt interested to see me in.

shheesshh :D

ive got nothing going my way.

rashes can itch, and so can it made you mad and fustrated.
ive been having a full body rash for three freaking days already, and it doesnt seem to want to heal. shheesshh...

anyway, lately ive been feelin vexed.
well, i suppose.
days when the world dont get you,
days when no one seems to be able to help you.
you just feel like grabbing your pillow and tearing it apart.
you want to mess your room and throw everything away from its place.
you want to scream and cry and hopefully have someone come hug you.
but you know you cant do it.
it wont happen.



"papa dont preach, im in trouble now.
papa dont preach, ive been losing sleep."

goodness gracious me.

cognitive module today.
goodness gracious me, the faci turned out to be yet another male guy who just couldnt seem to STOP asking questions!
like, what the hell man, couldnt he see that everyone was already restless?
and you know what is freaky?
whenever he asked a question, he would turn and look and sheena and i.
man were we freaked out.
and you know what was hilarious?
the way he drank his ribena!!!
he was slurping away like some guy who had never tasted such great ribena.
LOL.


anyway, i hesitated coming to school today.
I woke up feeling like crap and my tummy was hurting like no one's business.
i went to the toilet bowl and sat there for like what had seemed forever.
shheesshh...
i have no idea what i ate that crapped my morning.

i cabbed to school and guess what?
I slept most of the day away!
man did it felt good.
haha.

i was chatting with sam on msn while browsing through misso's blog during presentation.
HAHA.
i just couldnt concentrate.
teehee.

ohh, not to mention, i am blogging in class.
:D
meeting my bestie dawn later.
i can hardly wait.

ciao!

at the stroke of NOON.

i'm gonna go for swimming trails later.
i doubt i can make the timing.
oh goodness...

i'm eating "wan wan" cracker in class for lunch.
my diet sucks.
i wont be surprise if i die early.
ohh...i should just shut up.
haha.

you know, im aching and my body is freaking tense.
i can feel it man.
i should go for some freaking hella good massage.
it might just as well loosen me up.
maybe then will i be flexible.

by day, im engross and preoccupied in school.
not much thoughts of my sweetheart.

im bored in class la.
probably explains why im blogging.
no one to disturb.
even sam's not in school.
shheesshh...

had a long chat with grayson and dexter last night.
funny how love can change a person so much.
ive been thinking, people who have domestic partnerships all seem to be much happier.
casual remark.

oh yea, just to reconfirm that i am actually forgiven,
KEVIN KOO, I AM SORRY TO HAVE PLAYED YOU OUT ON YOUR BIRTHDAY.

teehee.
happy?

in a flirty mood?

you know how sometimes you feel confused?
hell yea, my heart is screwed and so is my brain.
goodness gracious.
i've got a dirty little secret and only i've got the key to it.

no comments.

i think i made someone angry today.
uh oh. :(
i'm like so sorry.
please don't ignore me.

music: stacie orrico: i'mnot missin' you

as much as i love you honey,
i gotta learn eh?

sigh, i dont wanna be like a burden to you.
right now, i may seem like an extra fustration,
right now i may seem like i dont understand,
right now i may seem like im not the one whom you can rely on for comfort,
but i hope you will realise one day.

i'll leave you alone to be busy.
i wont cry, i wont whine.
when you want me, i'll be there for now.

nothing in this world.

i've figured that I needed a distraction.
cam whoring ain't working.
mermaid just wants to play with her squeaky ball.
honey has no time for me.
no one's there.
sigh!

ok, i've got to find somethinge better than what i have now.











my big haired buddy, HADIF :)

burning sensation enough to kill.

check out my swollen eye.
i stayed home yesterday.
slept the day away with mermaid constantly coming up to me to i would suppose, to check on me?
haha :)




guess what?
i watched hi-5 and on kids central yesterday too!
teehee!
the kiddo in me.
*grins
anyway, i went to see the doc with mommy at night.
ive got antibiotics pills, cream and eye drops.
shheesshh...
i look like a pig.
oink oink!

trick or treat, happy halloween!

i woke up with a swollen left eye.
ouch!
i could hardly get outta bed.
and im not lying, i really had to drag myself out.
i cabbed to school because i was running late.

enterprise module.
we ended at like 1230 p.m.
cool, that was why i so insisted to go to school with my stupid eye buring.
i saw ending class early coming.
muahaha!

i was so eager to rush home and just head for bed, but guess what?
i headed for the dentist.
i had missed my last appointment which was like a zillion years ago.
so anyway, i headed for outram in hope of fixing my teeth with some other bright colour bands.
damn, but how was i to know that my freaking dentist wasn't in and the stupid nurse just refused to let me see another dentist.
screw it!
i came from woodlands mind you, do you know how freaking far that is huh??
shheeshh...and consideringthe fact that my eye was already felt like poping out and my nose was dripping like no one's business, I so wante to yell at the dumb nurse.

anyway, i skipped drama rehearsals today and also lifesaving training, where they had dry training which i suppose many would be slacking (opps!).
oh c'mon, i was unwell!
it was unintentional in other words.

so anyway, i got home around three plus to find my brother home with licia, his girlfriend.
i was slacking around instead of sleeping and then i decided that i should watch "the breakup" movie on my lappy.
with that, i had later went for a jog with mermaid and my shuffle.
it felt good, the night breeze.
well, it wasn't much of a breeze, considering the stupid haze.

wonderful eh...i was unwell but i could go for a jog.
wahahahaha!
i am so unpredictable.

i miss my sweetheart!

i heart you.

sugar sugar how'd you get so fly?

baby there's just something about you :)

i can see us holding hands, walking on the beach, our toes in the sand.

my <3

If I wrote you a symphony,
Just to say how much you mean to me (what would you do?)
If I told you you were beautiful
Would you date me on the regular (tell me, would you?)
Well, baby I've been around the world
But I ain't seen myself another girl (like you)
This ring here represents my heart
But there's just one thing I need from you (say "I do")


Yeah, because
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love


Now, if I wrote you a love note
And made you smile with every word I wrote (what would you do?)
Would that make you want to change your scene
And wanna be the one on my team (tell me, would you?)
See, what's the point of waiting anymore?
Cause girl I've never been more sure (that baby, it's you)
This ring here represents my heart
And everything that you've been waiting for (just say "I do")


Yeah, because
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love

Shorty, cool as a fan
On the new once again
But, still has fan from Peru to Japan
Listen baby, I don't wanna ruin your plan
If you got a man, try to lose him if you can
Cause the girls world wild through their hands up high
When they wanna come kick it wit a stand up guy
(Trust me) You don't really wanna let the chance go by
'cause you ain't been seen wit a man so fly
Baby friends so fly i can go fly
Private, cause I handle mine
T.I. they call me candle guy, simply because I am on fire
I hate to have to cancel my vacation so you can't deny
I'm patient, but I ain't gonna try
You don't come, I ain't gonna die
Hold up, what you mean, you can't go why?
Me and you boyfriend we ain't no tie
You say you wanna kick it when I ain't so high
Well, baby it's obvious that I ain't your guy
Ain't gon' lie, I feel your space
But forget your face, I swear I will
St. Barths, same bullet, anywhere I chill
Just bring wit me a pair, I will


Yeah, because
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love

and again.

i once said i wont let myself get hurt again.
oh well...i lied to myself.

here i am, putting so much into this already oh so fragile relationship and apparently, nothing seems to be working.
i guess im mad at myself for falling too deep.
you were once the sweet guy i so adored.
now you are the guy who constantly says he dont have time for me.
i get it, but cant you even treasure the times we have together?

im confuse.
i love you so but im getting so weak.
i simply have not a clue on what else to do but to cry.

i want so badly to get out of this misery.

and sam and darul said...

had science module in the library today.
first time i've had a class held outside of my classroom.
anyway, it was way more fun.
considering the cafe was just like a hundred steps away from where my class was sitting, you could imagine us walking up and down to get food and drinks like all the time.
anyway, we did biology today.
some genetic thingie which took me forever to understand.
my super sissy teacher was more of a burden than help.
he was blabbing away about having more self directed learning and class interaction.
the fact was that my class were all nice enough to try and pacify him by trying to live up to his never ending list of expectations just to get a freaking decent good grade.
but guess what, there he was, preaching about how we should be independent learners when he was in fact, the one going around lecturing us about what to do and what not to do.
ggeee....so much for trying so hard when you have one faci who is so narrow minded and simply love to cut into your speeches and disscussions.



so much for him.
so i was sitting down at my lappy in the library with my dear sam and darul while doing our rj.
while whining about the rj question (or rather it was just me), we had this conversation going on about getting high on alcohol.

sam says
"it's a damn shiok feeling, simply great"
"don't drink it fast and kill yourself"
"take your time to enjoy and blabber nonsense with your buddy"
"just go to bed when you can't take it any more"
"never have your cell phone anywhere near you when you are high"

and darul and i look on at sam.
and then we drifted on to hmmm...punishing girls by having sex??
apparently, sam was amazed by that idea.

sam says
"i like the way you put it"

darul and i simply laugh on.




sam thinks im violent.
shheessh...
so i said he should keep like what two feet away form each other but yea yea we never accomplished it.
haha.
can i help the way i am?

why'd you make me sad again.

sweet, you know how much i adore you.
i fell in love with a boy i once never noticed.
i cant bear to not see you even for a day.
i hate when you work away and dont have time for me.
my mind drifts babe.
i'm afraid to think too much.
not to mention that i get lonely and do weird stuff.
i dont wanna get use to this though.

had fun with baby :)

clubbing at DXO till 4 in the mornin'.
baby's friends.
his brother.
twang and misso.
dancing in the already jam packed crap space.
shhessh...
kinda like too little space, too much sweat and too little alocohol.

met geraldine there too.
it's kinda been like 'zillion' years since i last saw her.
kinda unexpected.
never really thought she would club.
teehee.
oh well...

let's dance the night away again babe :)

i hate you so.

"no matter what, my family is more important."



i was right to think of how much i meant to you.
you've changed within a month.
god is playing me.
i thought i found someone who loved me wholeheartly.
mistake after mistakes.
im so tired.

fuck love.

my boyfriend.

baby says i dont blog about him.
naahh...
see see, im blogging about you now.
teehee! xp

love love muchies <3

suddenly i see.

i bought a shuffle finally.
after losing my mini and nano, i decided to not waste mommy and daddy's cash and just buy my own shuffle.
it cost me $118.
so if it gets stole yet again, i wouldn't feel so heartbroken.
lol.

i've got a new hobby.
jogging with mermaid and trying hard in perfecting my freestyle strokes.
i wanna loose weight.

i've got new classmates.
they are rather fine.
my facilitator suck big time though.
confused and dumb in mny opinion.


i've been watching 'the devil wears prada' over and over again.
apparently, i ain't getting sick of it.

will i grow up to wear heels, chanel, prada and be a size four?
will i be beautiful?
will i be one of those slim girls who walk the runway and wear pretty little dresses?


it's one of those days when girl power kicks in and decides to settle down for awhile.
one of those days where a girl just feels confident and decides to let her hair down and have fun.
ohh yea...


i feel like getting high today.
i feel like having a drink or two.



suddenly i see - KT Tunstall
her face is a map of the world, is a map of the world.
you can see she's a beautiful girl, she's a beautiful girl.
and everything around her is a silver pool of light.
people who's around her feel the benefit of it.
it makes you count.
she'll hold you captivated in a path.

suddenly i see.
this is what i wanna be.
suddenly i see.
why the hell it means so much to me.
suddenly is see.
this is what i wanna be.
suddenly i see.
why the hell it means so much to me.

sixpence none the richer, kiss me

Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift up your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon it's hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map







"yea, and maybe, i've missed you too."

oh, bring to somewhere where the grass is green and the flowers are bright and pretty. where there's only me and you with the stars above us and the breeze in our hair. where there are no worries and i can cuddle up to you and smile with ease. maybe i'll dance. maybe i'll think that i am the luckiest girl because i have you sweets. oh, do kiss me again.