the night.

im upset.
so few people turned up for training today.
oh well...
i wasnt feeling too good anyway.
think i was spreading my germs around.
muahaha.
sneezing and coughing.
lol.
my legs are on the verge of breaking now.
freaking shagged.
walked too much.
swam too hard.
hahas.

oh hey...
yea...thanks gladys for doing up my blog.
credits go to you.
hmm.
ohh...except the part about you being my bestest cousin and how i love you.
sick.
muahahaha.

ciaos people!

saturday day out.

arrwww...i just so love my sugar.
see. he's so cute.
hahas.
we were eating rosti outside bugis junction today in the afternoon.
the sun never felt so good.
hmm.
i gave my baby a locket to wear for our one year anniversary.
his was an oval rectangular shape.
mine is a heart shape.
i kinda thought it would look weird for him to wear a heart shape on his neck.
heh.
now we gotta find the perfect picture to fit into our lockets.
i love my baby.
we look good together.
*grins =))

HATE.

my prelims finally OFFICIALLY ended on today, friday, 23rd of september 2005. =))
damn. i was so freaking confident about my accouts paper two. i really was. totally.
but the moment i opened the damn paper, i knew right from that fucking moment i was gonna screw up real bad. shitty. cursing.
unreasonable.
pride.
damn.
what the hell is wrong?
physco.
the paper was ridiculously difficult. what the hell. half the things i practiced for didnt show up on that freaking paper. dumb.
i dont understand. why is her setting of the paper so different from the rest of the schools?
whtever that came out for the other schools, i've seen it and done it.
i did my part. it isnt fair.

im gonna flunk my POA.
this is sick.
i was crying my eyes out on friday.
i feel so useless.
many a times i've had this thought.
why is it that i am hardworking and studious but yet i always produce so little result?
sigh.
i wanna give up at times. i cant stand it.
why cant i study?

today i hate being me.
today i curse.
today i cry.
today i hope and pray for a better me.

you dont know how much you mean to me.
whenever you're down you know that you can lean on me.
no matter the situation.
boy im gonna hold you down.

WEDNESDAY the "13".

bad day.
for starters, i woke up late and had to rush to school for my mock math examination.
man was i panicking, shuffling everything that seemed useful to me into my bag.
my dad wasnt helping either. he was yelling and telling me how much i deserved to be late.
LOL. like what the hell...
anyway, i was too busy panicking to curse or swear.
i got to school on time thanks to the cab my dad booked. you know like JUST NICE.
haha.
and guess what, like that wasnt BAD enough, i thought my handphone walked out of my life.
i had initially thought that i had left my celly in the cab.
damn. so there i was, desperately calling my celly hoping that the cabby caught attention of it or somethin'.
and then, a "miracle" happened.
casselyn and leekiang STROLLED in CALMLY and kinda gave me a "LAUGHING" look.
and the next thing i knew, cass took out my celly and like "surprised" me. erm...WOW?
this is actually what really happened. My cell phone had dropped onto the road/pavement (that colourful brick like thing outside the freakily small canteen) and they had "so happened" walked in at "the right time".
hahaha.
whatever.
thanks guys. thanks to you peeps my cell phone "re-entered" my life and thanks to you guys that it didnt get squash under some big fat wheel. lala~
oohh..and i had the most lessons today. i mean for the hols. yea.
ended school around 3pm and I had to take a cab down with ALEXIUS FERNANDEZ to novena for POA tution that ended at 530pm.
yawns. im so shagged.
stopping here for the moment.
yea yea.
like...
SING FOR THE MOMENT.
heh.

WE BELONG TOGETHER. =)) *grins

my TRIP to singapore polytechnic.

i was there for about half a day.
from like 1 to 5pm.
gosh. it sure was tiring.
not that we actually did much, but sitting around and listening to talks are DRAINING.
LOL.
well, we had a little tour around parts of the school today.
humid day. i was getting so irritated. dumb weather. *growls
i remember climbing up many stairs. yea. i thought i was going to die. shouldnt have wore heels. =/
i didnt see jinyi or arens anywhere. haha.
not that i expected to in that LARGE compound.
wanted to go home with jinyi but my friend's dad offered and i had to take it before i fainted on the spot.
lala~
i was exhausted and as if that wasnt bad enough, i had a headache.
thank goodness i didnt throw up or somethin'.
ohh...and guess what?
i won a PRIZE!
SP gift.
you know what the question was?
"which MRT is nearest to singapore polytechnic?"
everyone yelled dover mrt.
but me???
i RAISED my hand up.
teehee~ =))
and that's why i won the prize.
HAHA!
yea yea...i know...im so SMART.
muahahahahaha.
anyway, i realised how scary poly life really is.
ya..it's fun and all but imagine, you, a little small fry running around in an extremely big campus filled with hundreds peeps?
grr...haha.
gotta go!
dinner's finally ready.
ciao!!

i went to heaven and touched the sky.

5mins47secs.

yupps. there you have it.
i passed my timing!
*big fat grins =))
yiipppeee!!!
hahas.
distinction award...here i come!!!
LOL.

one LIFE. LIVE it.

this is ben khong.
he left lifesaving.
all because of A levels.
this is bunny bun bun (haha!) at uncle patrick's house.
this is the back view of his shirt.
cool.
i like it.

bittersweet dried up roses.

ive been looking at the bunch of dried roses on my table. bittersweet memories come flooding back. sigh. i cant type it out here though. it wouldnt seem appropriate.

ever wondered why it's always roses that are given out on valentines day?

i love roses even if it isnt my favourite flower.

fascinating the way it is. the deep red petals and long thorny stalk. red says of sweetness and perhaps another darker side. one that it doesnt reveal. it's like a human. everyone wears a mask. sugary and sweet are many of us on the outside. devilish and wild is the other side of us deep down. as beautiful as in may seem, a rose pricks like a human does too. be careful where you touch or you may get hurt. as each petal falls to the ground and the rose slowly wither, the human loses it's youth and grows weaker. the more dried up a rose is, the more harmless it is.

a rose is a rose is a rose......

GONE GOING GONE EVERYTHING GONE GIVE A DAMN.

yawns.

it's teachers' day. yea...like WOW. haha. so like i decided to come home from school first so i could put my stuff down and take a bath. and now, im still HERE...at home. im suppose to be out. haha. i mean on the way back to rosyth. lala~ im so tired. i only caught two hours of sleep last night. whatever. i better hurry and get ready. im so outta here-