the true spirit of a lifesaver.

i started lifesaving when i was 15. it's been 7 years and the love for my sport has never once died out. i grew up to it and in turn, the sport taught me to grow. i cannot and will not imagine my life without lifesaving. it's in me and i will always want it to be a part of it. where i am today, it was through sheer hard work. all the efforts and commitment that i have put in and all the sacrifices that i have made was for the sport. i don't just love and live it because of the competitions. i do it because it's more than just a sport to me. it's a passion and a dedication that i live by, i really want to teach and educate, i want to save lives and try to make a difference. i am always ever ready and eager to learn. i've not just once put lifesaving before everything else. that's how much i truly love my sport. the essence to it all it's not just about winning all the time. i believe it's about practicing good habits and principles. you need an open heart, you need believe in it and be doing the sport for the right reasons. lifesavers don't walk away at the end of the day thinking that they are champions and they don't count the number of medals that they have won. true lifesavers walk away at the end of the day thinking about the process of it all, what had been done and what could be done better. they make friends and they help and share whenever they can. you see the pride in them when they are around their sport, you see their eyes light up and that smile will always be plastered on their faces. you see the pain, the focus and the determination to do well and you see the honest congratulations to fellow lifesavers after events. and it's not just about the competitions. there is so much more to lifesaving then just going up against each other and fighting to be the best. what's a lifesaver when he or she can't perform rescues and help others in need? If they aren't able to impart their skills and be able to want to learn.

everything that i do, it was with the thought of lifesaving in it. i breathe it, i need it because i choose it. i worked for it and i think that i deserved it. there will never be shortcuts to it and i'm sorry but there will always be 'lifesavers' out there that don't deserve my respect.

'but with what we have, i promise you that we're marching on'

music: mariah carey: bye bye

i don't want anyone to bid me farewell, to end a friendship with me, to leave me forever. 22 years of my life i've been through many ups and downs. where i am today, i know who my friends really are and i know who has and are gonna be there for me till the very end. i've put a whole lot of emotions into the life i have created for myself and whatever that i have done, i hope for nothing but the best for everyone around me. thank you for being there with me and always having the faith in me, you guys should know who you are :)

to finally be feeling like how i was way back while i was younger and in school, to finally feel the rush of excitement each time my phone rings or when i see you, the feeling is priceless. never knew i would get this feeling again, never did i think i would ever find anyone who would make me all nervously happy and excited all over again. it's old school, it's a warm fuzzy feeling, it's nice, sweet and adorable, it makes me go weak at the knees and smile endlessly to myself. it makes me feel hopeful, makes my worries go away and all i really wanna do is just kick off my shoes and lie by you, snuggle up to you and not have to worry or think about tomorrow at all. you make me feel wanted, you make me feel insecure, you make me feel like you care and you make me feel annoyed and confused too. but it's young love isn't it? didn't i feel this way back then? but then there's so much more to think about now that i am growing up. so much to worry and so much to plan. i hate it, i really do. i just wanna do what my heart tells me to and live with no regrets. but it is reality and there are consequences to face. i would try really, i always am that girl who takes that leap of faith anyways, but i don't think i can do this alone this time around so if you are willing, i would let you help me but if you decide that you won't, i will not fight for you because if this was worth it, i won't have to make any decisions at all. i won't hurt and i won't have to worry. i'll be happy instead. don't go breaking my heart like how everyone else did.