trick or treat, happy halloween!

i woke up with a swollen left eye.
ouch!
i could hardly get outta bed.
and im not lying, i really had to drag myself out.
i cabbed to school because i was running late.

enterprise module.
we ended at like 1230 p.m.
cool, that was why i so insisted to go to school with my stupid eye buring.
i saw ending class early coming.
muahaha!

i was so eager to rush home and just head for bed, but guess what?
i headed for the dentist.
i had missed my last appointment which was like a zillion years ago.
so anyway, i headed for outram in hope of fixing my teeth with some other bright colour bands.
damn, but how was i to know that my freaking dentist wasn't in and the stupid nurse just refused to let me see another dentist.
screw it!
i came from woodlands mind you, do you know how freaking far that is huh??
shheeshh...and consideringthe fact that my eye was already felt like poping out and my nose was dripping like no one's business, I so wante to yell at the dumb nurse.

anyway, i skipped drama rehearsals today and also lifesaving training, where they had dry training which i suppose many would be slacking (opps!).
oh c'mon, i was unwell!
it was unintentional in other words.

so anyway, i got home around three plus to find my brother home with licia, his girlfriend.
i was slacking around instead of sleeping and then i decided that i should watch "the breakup" movie on my lappy.
with that, i had later went for a jog with mermaid and my shuffle.
it felt good, the night breeze.
well, it wasn't much of a breeze, considering the stupid haze.

wonderful eh...i was unwell but i could go for a jog.
wahahahaha!
i am so unpredictable.

i miss my sweetheart!

i heart you.

sugar sugar how'd you get so fly?

baby there's just something about you :)

i can see us holding hands, walking on the beach, our toes in the sand.

my <3

If I wrote you a symphony,
Just to say how much you mean to me (what would you do?)
If I told you you were beautiful
Would you date me on the regular (tell me, would you?)
Well, baby I've been around the world
But I ain't seen myself another girl (like you)
This ring here represents my heart
But there's just one thing I need from you (say "I do")


Yeah, because
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love


Now, if I wrote you a love note
And made you smile with every word I wrote (what would you do?)
Would that make you want to change your scene
And wanna be the one on my team (tell me, would you?)
See, what's the point of waiting anymore?
Cause girl I've never been more sure (that baby, it's you)
This ring here represents my heart
And everything that you've been waiting for (just say "I do")


Yeah, because
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love

Shorty, cool as a fan
On the new once again
But, still has fan from Peru to Japan
Listen baby, I don't wanna ruin your plan
If you got a man, try to lose him if you can
Cause the girls world wild through their hands up high
When they wanna come kick it wit a stand up guy
(Trust me) You don't really wanna let the chance go by
'cause you ain't been seen wit a man so fly
Baby friends so fly i can go fly
Private, cause I handle mine
T.I. they call me candle guy, simply because I am on fire
I hate to have to cancel my vacation so you can't deny
I'm patient, but I ain't gonna try
You don't come, I ain't gonna die
Hold up, what you mean, you can't go why?
Me and you boyfriend we ain't no tie
You say you wanna kick it when I ain't so high
Well, baby it's obvious that I ain't your guy
Ain't gon' lie, I feel your space
But forget your face, I swear I will
St. Barths, same bullet, anywhere I chill
Just bring wit me a pair, I will


Yeah, because
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love

and again.

i once said i wont let myself get hurt again.
oh well...i lied to myself.

here i am, putting so much into this already oh so fragile relationship and apparently, nothing seems to be working.
i guess im mad at myself for falling too deep.
you were once the sweet guy i so adored.
now you are the guy who constantly says he dont have time for me.
i get it, but cant you even treasure the times we have together?

im confuse.
i love you so but im getting so weak.
i simply have not a clue on what else to do but to cry.

i want so badly to get out of this misery.

and sam and darul said...

had science module in the library today.
first time i've had a class held outside of my classroom.
anyway, it was way more fun.
considering the cafe was just like a hundred steps away from where my class was sitting, you could imagine us walking up and down to get food and drinks like all the time.
anyway, we did biology today.
some genetic thingie which took me forever to understand.
my super sissy teacher was more of a burden than help.
he was blabbing away about having more self directed learning and class interaction.
the fact was that my class were all nice enough to try and pacify him by trying to live up to his never ending list of expectations just to get a freaking decent good grade.
but guess what, there he was, preaching about how we should be independent learners when he was in fact, the one going around lecturing us about what to do and what not to do.
ggeee....so much for trying so hard when you have one faci who is so narrow minded and simply love to cut into your speeches and disscussions.



so much for him.
so i was sitting down at my lappy in the library with my dear sam and darul while doing our rj.
while whining about the rj question (or rather it was just me), we had this conversation going on about getting high on alcohol.

sam says
"it's a damn shiok feeling, simply great"
"don't drink it fast and kill yourself"
"take your time to enjoy and blabber nonsense with your buddy"
"just go to bed when you can't take it any more"
"never have your cell phone anywhere near you when you are high"

and darul and i look on at sam.
and then we drifted on to hmmm...punishing girls by having sex??
apparently, sam was amazed by that idea.

sam says
"i like the way you put it"

darul and i simply laugh on.




sam thinks im violent.
shheessh...
so i said he should keep like what two feet away form each other but yea yea we never accomplished it.
haha.
can i help the way i am?

why'd you make me sad again.

sweet, you know how much i adore you.
i fell in love with a boy i once never noticed.
i cant bear to not see you even for a day.
i hate when you work away and dont have time for me.
my mind drifts babe.
i'm afraid to think too much.
not to mention that i get lonely and do weird stuff.
i dont wanna get use to this though.

had fun with baby :)

clubbing at DXO till 4 in the mornin'.
baby's friends.
his brother.
twang and misso.
dancing in the already jam packed crap space.
shhessh...
kinda like too little space, too much sweat and too little alocohol.

met geraldine there too.
it's kinda been like 'zillion' years since i last saw her.
kinda unexpected.
never really thought she would club.
teehee.
oh well...

let's dance the night away again babe :)

i hate you so.

"no matter what, my family is more important."



i was right to think of how much i meant to you.
you've changed within a month.
god is playing me.
i thought i found someone who loved me wholeheartly.
mistake after mistakes.
im so tired.

fuck love.

my boyfriend.

baby says i dont blog about him.
naahh...
see see, im blogging about you now.
teehee! xp

love love muchies <3

suddenly i see.

i bought a shuffle finally.
after losing my mini and nano, i decided to not waste mommy and daddy's cash and just buy my own shuffle.
it cost me $118.
so if it gets stole yet again, i wouldn't feel so heartbroken.
lol.

i've got a new hobby.
jogging with mermaid and trying hard in perfecting my freestyle strokes.
i wanna loose weight.

i've got new classmates.
they are rather fine.
my facilitator suck big time though.
confused and dumb in mny opinion.


i've been watching 'the devil wears prada' over and over again.
apparently, i ain't getting sick of it.

will i grow up to wear heels, chanel, prada and be a size four?
will i be beautiful?
will i be one of those slim girls who walk the runway and wear pretty little dresses?


it's one of those days when girl power kicks in and decides to settle down for awhile.
one of those days where a girl just feels confident and decides to let her hair down and have fun.
ohh yea...


i feel like getting high today.
i feel like having a drink or two.



suddenly i see - KT Tunstall
her face is a map of the world, is a map of the world.
you can see she's a beautiful girl, she's a beautiful girl.
and everything around her is a silver pool of light.
people who's around her feel the benefit of it.
it makes you count.
she'll hold you captivated in a path.

suddenly i see.
this is what i wanna be.
suddenly i see.
why the hell it means so much to me.
suddenly is see.
this is what i wanna be.
suddenly i see.
why the hell it means so much to me.