square face.

science class.
boring.
it's dragging on and on and on.
i'm pissed at my square headed teacher and it isn't getting any better!
she gave me a 'C' grade last week, claiming to the class that there have been complains that she has been given high grades.
yea right.
science is bad.
it makes me sleepy and it makes me mad.
i wanna be on the sunny island of sentosa.
i dont wanna be stuck in this big white and air conditioned school.
sigh!
get me outta here!!!
great...it's my team's turn to present.
see ya all peeps tonight.

ohh...look what i was doing during break.
childhood biscuits.
lol.
yea...lion lion..see...

NUS invitational competition 2006.

it was a blast even though there were no medals won. we had loads of fun cheering and screaming our lungs. we had all pushed ourselves to the maximum and by the end of the day everyone was shagged out.

last NUS training for the year?

ok. yesterday has got to be the worst training ever. i couldn't do anything right. sigh, it's days like this that really get me real down and crying on my knees. i tried and i tried and i tired. it hurts, my muscles ached, my fingers were burning and my legs were giving way. but i didn't wanna stop. i was nernous and i knew it. i was scare and i was hoping some magic would happen and i would be enlighten.

for the days to come, i'm gonna be praying.

let me have faith in myself.

fear creeping in.

i'm freaking. it's like only four days to nus invitational's competition and i'm really freaking. i'm afraid of losing. yikes! god, save me. have i slackened? sigh! i really hope not. anyway, i'll be pushing myself. i'll be bringing out the best in me. for my team and for myself. haha. oh yea. it's sad and strange to now be competing with people i once trained with. sigh once again. why is it this way? hmm...people from stingray, gosh, you dont know how much i miss you guys. i'm always busy. sometimes i question myself, when will i see you people again? will u look at me the same way you guys once did? perhaps things and people change. either way, i still love you peole the same way i always did.

i think all that's on my mine now is the competition. train train and more trainings. please let me have confidence in myself. please dont let my efforts go to waste. i wanna win and i wanna do well. is it too much that i am asking for?

hangin' on to all that i have to offer.

july 15

*republic polytechnic's over the wall production at the esplanade
*nus invitation at (erm...duhh) nus

august 6

*national lifesaving open waters championships at sentosa

august 27

*national lifesaving still waters competition




i've been busy. really busy. it's worst than being a dumb bee. my daily routine is waking up at 6am everyday from mondays to fridays and ending school at 4pm. oh no, my day doesn't end there. IGs are what takes up the rest of my time everyday after school. sigh! no social life, no personal space, no time for my mermaid and no time to cry over love. haha. yea ok, maybe i'm loving this busy lifestyle now, but then again, maybe i ain't lovin' it. if i ain't at lifesaving trainings, then you would find me at drama rehearsals.

i'm tired but still very determined. I want to achieve something. I want to be sastified with myself. I want each stroke and each pull to be perfect, I want each move and pitch in my voice to be flawless. So here I am, probably tiring myself out more than i think i would be able to take it.

maybe something's bugging me real bad. maybe i don't know what, therefore, i'm making myself so busy to avoid it.

how far am i to loving you, sweet?
or rather how far are you to loving me?