you left without a word after you class today.
no smses, no calls.
you simply left.

what's going on.

i keep thinking, maybe you want me for the wrong things.

i still love you babe.

hold me close and whisper into my ears that you still need me.

losers go to hell...maybe?

you know how people treat you so nice in front of your face but they are fuggling loser behind your back because they talk bad about you like there's no tomorrow behing your back?

ive always known someone like that.
god, do something!
kim you know, i know, we all secretly do.
i swear a bitch it is.

leave me alone now, wont you.
i havent done anything to you.

i gave you everything that i could give.
and from now till forever, i am worthless.

what's love?

is it normal to cry a lot for a person? i guess so.
is it normal to go all out for that someone? i think so too.

but what if you feel like the world ic crashing down on you?
and that one person whom you trsut to help you ends up making you sad too?
what do you do?

what if you feel like you can't speak to your friends because you are afraid of what they may say?
all you ever say to them now is how much you are so in love and that you are the luckiest girl alive.
what do you do when you have a million things bottled inside you and you don't know where to start even if a hundred people offer a listening ear?

i want to feel that love and security all over again.
i feel numb now.
i dream and hoep a lot, but it never happens.
i ain't saying that i don't love you no more but just that i think you are confuse.

regrets in my life are things i do not forget.

IM BACK whether you like it or not :))

music: gwen stefani: the sweet escape


i haven't been blogging for a zillion kabillion years...i know i know...i apolpgise for those who have tried to update themselves on my blog but only to be turned off by no new update at all.


anyway, a million happenings had happened....errr..yea...and i have no idea where to start at all...


wednesday: fourth april
my hella cool eighteen birthday. i celebrated the day away with my beach patrols brothers. we had lunch at that cafe at borders (i so forgot the name!) and then headed to..erm the KTV...err..the one near heeren..yea..and sang our lungs and hearts away to english oldies and cheena songs, where i actually learnt to appreciate jay chou's songs. haha :x we had mos burger for dinner because almost everywhere else was jam packed and i haven't got a shit clue at all why because it was only mid week wednesday.

then we headed down to zouk because baby wanted to go mambo. there, the whole gang (i mean the boys) met my lovely bitches, namely, rachelle and her friend wanxin and samantha. (my paris couldn't make it!) we wanted to drink, and we did, but it wasn't enough at all to get us the slightest bit high. anyway, we more or less danced the night away at phuture instead. oh, did i mention that dino, twang, misso and southpark joined us too? haha.

babes gave me the sweetest smelling bunch of flowers with a dorothy perkins tote and tube. i love it baby, as much as i so adore you :) i hereby thank everyone who has made my birthday a blast, i fugglying love you peeps.


now that i can club officially, i'm lovin' everything about it.


the following wednesday: eleven april
my bitches again, rach, sam and i (sheena didn't go again) headed to zouk. this time, no guys with us. we were shit afraid that we would miss clubing once school started and thus, the last minute decision to head down. hahaha. anyway, the sickest shit happened, or so i thought..bahh...the ugliest guys had to come and dance with us and they got touchy touchy!! eewww....we didn't let them get to us of course! we brushed them off and still had a freaking great time! then rach had to 'ditch' us for another guy and so it was just sam and i to go nutty, hopping from zouk to phuture. oh and rach's friends had made us finish their drink just because they had ordered too much. phheeww...i was so freaking bloated..

ohhh...and i had bryan looy staring down at me. erm..okok..not that he was attracted or anything....it was beacuse he saw me..hahahahaha!!! plus, i saw damian while having prata with sam in the wee hours..oh gosh..*melts...arrgghh...i just recalled...on my birthday night at zouk i saw oh so cute shaun ong :)))


monday: sixteen april
the first day of school. new classroom, new friends and new academic year. duuhhh... one of the candidates for miss rp is my classmate...jasmine diana danker..hmm...she seems..ehh..no comments...oh well...i shan't judge till i get to know her better..haa... my class seems like a quite bunch..as in a really good bunch..and i mean it...oh my goodness..i'm so afraid of not being able to perform...the first two days has passed, meaning two modules has gone by and i ain'y finding it the least bit easy peasy at all! wish me luck!!!


wednesday: eighteen april
off day because i was wise enough not to choose and elective. hmm...the truth is, i hadn't been able to make up my mind on what i had wanted to take yet..so i decided to give myself time. i had spent the day slacking at baby's crib and then of course to cater to my darling mermaid.

holly cracker moley!! back to school tomorrow :/ oh wells....


i promise more updates and kim, make once a month to once a week yea? hahaha.


truck loads of hugs and kisses,
jin