+61.

Hello from Perth. It's been almost five months that i'm here and all's been good so far. I have settled in and have adjusted to life here in +61. I must say that it really wasn't easy to let go of the only life I knew back home in SG and all the friends, family and my precious kids. I was torn, heartbroken and missing everything a lot at the beginning but I constantly told myself it was for the best, that I had to be fair to the kids especially, to finish up school for good so that I can give them my fully attention and focus. I wanted only the best for them and so I plucked up my courage to let go….for the moment. This decision to finish up my studies in UWA was also honestly because I was losing focusing back home. Being a part time student isn't easy. To juggle work and school can get tedious. Especially when I am someone who follows my heart more than my brain. I was putting my kids before school and it was hard to sit and focus on my studies. 

Coming to Perth, I had a few goals in mind of course. To do the best I can in uni and to get the ultimate lifesaving experience as well. How exciting it is, to be in the heart of where the one and only sport I love is a way of life here. It's been fantastic, watching kids even participating in lifesaving activities. I have so fun even just watching their carnivals and trainings sometimes and I am so eager to go home and try to make a difference to our scene. It's like I have a whole lot of ideas just waiting to burst out. The same for school, I love the learning here! The lecturers are great and very knowledgable. No regrets at all coming here and I am certainly proud to say that I have the first hand experience here. I feel more pride being a sport science student now that I am officially a student at Crawley. 

At the beginning I felt alone and homesick of course. I constantly wondered how everyone was doing back at home and what I was missing. I learnt to make friends and I learnt to deal with feelings of being 'outcasted' as well. I had joined board trainings at the club and I couldn't help but feel like I was unwanted there. It could have been me thinking too much and it could have also been because I joined them all of a sudden (without getting my bronze first) but I sucked it up anyways and just continued on. I can't say that things are good now but I've moved on and hopefully things get better from here on with the right pathway that I am on.

Just the other night my car got broken into. KR and I were having our theory lesson at the club. The car was parked just outside the club and it was a well lit area. The thief had meddled with the front doors and managed to spoil the passenger side door handle. There are now dents at the handles too. He (I am assuming that it is a guy) stole KR's wallet with $90aud inside and luckily the only important car inside was his SG's driver's license. That asshole also stole KR's new Adidias shoes, our phone cables and car charger and the most mysterious thing he stole was my swimming hand paddles. I am so frustrated because I can't figure out why he stole what he stole. My wallet and phone was in the glove compartment too and he didn't take them. But why? I am shocked for sure, I never would have imagined that I would become a victim to car theft. I have definitely been complacement and it is a lesson learnt. The feeling of having your privacy invaded is bothering and not nice at all. Till today my feelings of frustrations, anger and sadness lingers on and I am more paranoid now. Like I am afraid it will happen again and it would be worst this time around. I am trying to stay positive and move on, telling myself that it could have been a lot worst and thankfully non of us were hurt at all. It seems that it is common here because when we told our instructors they seemed so calmed about about it. But us being Singaporeans were obviously shaken. I now appreciate how safe SG really is. 

To be continued…...

Counting down to Perth. It's so near now.

the fighter in me.

Dear me, 

Always remember how far you came along to become what you are today. Please don't give up, please don't throw it all away. Live for the passion, fight for what you believe in and never ever live in regrets. It was a long way here and always learn from yesterdays. 

You made mistakes growing up but it happened for reasons. It made you experience life and it all shaped you to be the fighter you are today. There will always be down moments where it's so hard and you just keep breaking down over and over again. Life will eat you, bruise you and make you fall but that's what makes it interesting and worth it. Don't stay at being contented, always aim high and forward. Be open and take what others offer and always try. You may be good but there's always someone better than you out there. Curl up and feel like dying sometimes, take time to feel the pain and let the tears roll down at times. Feel it and then pick yourself up again. You may fail many times but don't you dare give up. you are worth it, you can do it. Keep the precious ones close and appreciate them. 

Do your best to not let the negativity in. They will get to you and bug you and make you feel like crap but come on, you've had this one too many times, people telling you that you aren't good enough and people not believing in your dreams but always tell yourself who cares, they don't know, they didn't take the time to want to know what's going on in your life so why should they judge. Remember it's those who love you that you should thank and treasure. They are you rock. 

Don't drift away, come back, always come right back to where your heart is. You can't run away, you know it's impossible.

music: pink featuring nate ruess: just give me a reason

you made me love again, you made me whole again. there's not a day that i wake up not loving you.

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i took flight and now i'm learning to soar. my past are memories and stories that i have to share and have made me become who I am today.

2013; make it happen, make it fab.