sentosa's beach patrol team.

at sentosa's beach patrol, one gets to meet people from many walks of life. here, we've got lawyers, insurance agents, engineers, doctors etc....not forgetting the students too.

being not quite much of a junior no more, i reflect and see myself change more than i thought i would have. the jin then, back in january 6 2006 was very much fair and chubbier. not to mention, i was more childish, immature and perhaps made decisions rashly.

the jin almost a year later is more a grow lady, althought many perhaps might beg to differ. (i'm sure the guys would understand. haha.) now i think twice and i actually think for the future of what would happen. suddenlt it all seems to be that what i do would affect me in every way that is possible.

what more, i see myself talking for sense and indulging in conversations that actually seem to mean more than it should have been. it benefits me and i like the way it all falls into place now.

my perception of many things have changed and at times, i feel like an older sister to the new birds but no matter what, i would still feel like the baby of them all. i smile to myself at what i have achieved within a period that i would call short.

people change. i have and mpst of you have. many come and then go but i don't forget. maybe i don't show or speak but you guys have all benefited me in oen way or another. too many too mention, too many to thank individually. but i love you guys, i may seem like a pushover, one who you guys can joke overboard and still i won't mind but i guess things change and i've grown a whole lot more. i wish you'd give me respect a woman should get at times. i mean i want the fun and closeness still but at the right times.

thank you team sentosa for teaching me to grow.

music: the fray: how to save a life

cooling off already, i can finally think straight and look at the prettier images. they say rainy days will go and the sun will come. i'd say how a person decides to behave and act counts for how one feels too.

listening to the fray sounds oh so inspirational suddenly. it makes me think of my job, and how else to cherish what i've got now.

people make mistakes, it scars and it tears but no one was ever taught to be perfect. crying and stressing don't help and we all know it too well but why, why do we still do it? is it because of the way we want people to judge us? like we are pitiful and all we really need is a shoulder to lie on and a good tight hug.

people say look around when in times of trouble and in doubt and it's then where you realise friends matter. i agree.

to the person, you know who you are, i've let you down and i want to say i'm sorry love. thank you for making me who i am today. you make me whole, really.