all i wanna do is to fall back into love.

friends are people who like you for you even though they know eveything good or bad about you...right? then why do some discourage? then why do some frown?

ive thought for so long and so hard. i think about the consequences, i think about what would come, i think about all the things that i have to understand and accept and guess what, i want it. i promise to be so different. i priomise to try. i promise, i'll make a change in myself. i trust you and i need you to trust me as well. you are scare and so am i. we'll get through it together :) all i am asking, is for you remember that i am me and not someone else you know.

i still cant believe that it happened, and i need a reasurance in what you said to me again. cos honestly, i feel that i am not good enough for you. i feel like nothing and guess what. no one has made me feel like that before.

today, i came across a song that my friend had wrote, compose, played and sang for his girlfriend.
i found it so sweet, and i really mean it.
i guess it showed me what love really was all about.
i've never heard words that were so sincere.
i am truly amazed.

music: maria carey: always be my baby

it's a saturday morning and i am home. when i woke this morn, i was smiling. just last night, i was feeling like crap, all stressed up and sulking. well, looks like i got up on the right side of bed this time around. anyways, i had this song already playing in my mind and i quickly grabbed my lappy to find it. anywas, i havent got any plans except that tonight im meeting my girls at 6 and before that ive got to meet ken to buy materials for monday's class. oh yea, and i wanna go do some last min practicing in school. dang, but first, ive got to get the room keys from my captain.

last night, i was so down. to the core i swear. i was like on the verge of tearing. actually, i did cry i guess. i was so stress. you know the feeling when you are so scared and stress? i felt that way. many a times, i feel like i havent done enough, i havent put my best foot forward. i feel so afraid. i dont even know how to describe. it sucks even more when the whole world tells me that ive got so much potential. i want to believe them, but each time, i feel like im usless.

so here i am, listening to songs by maria carey, still in bed and waiting for an sms that'll make my day. tomorrow's my competition and it just so is saddening that narene cant come anymore to watch :( anyways, i'd rather she rest and do well for her trials.

ciao for now.

'and i get to kiss you baby just because i can'

j i n . z- www.scenesofmydrama.blogspot.com says:
seriously, how do i know if i really really like her more than a friend

[c=5][c=55][Vengeful,strong and anti-social][/c]Girly man's the God of Puss![/c][b]STUPIDLIFELESSPEOPLE[/b] says:
ehhh...when you start thinking about her more than usual and when you realise you think of her as a partner rather than a friend





on a topic that i never would have seen myself talking to eneida about.





i told nut. i told him. i think i've made it all clear now. come what may now.
*crosses finger and puts on a lil' smile while listening to micheal buble on ipod.

memories of you and for you.

i guess sometimes, when one thinks that she is over someone, the truth actually hits her and she realizes that the cold hard fact is that she really still is in love with that someone. maybe it is merely part and parcel of love and life. im confuse. each time i think and i ponder on why i said what i said and regret. i know i do wish every thing hadn't happened the way it did. babes, i swear that if i were given just one more chance to turn things around, i would make things ever so right. but then again, im back down in reality and i can now actaully see how much my childishness had actually taken a big fat impact on me. it's gone. i need a wake up call every now and then to tell me that i brought this upon myself. i let you go baby. anyways, i know i want you to be ever so happy because i know you deserve it all. memories with you were the best. through the short time we had, we made the best outta it all. thank you so much. i still tear when i think about it all. as promised, i'll take you on a journey to show you how much i've grown up.






















asia pacific competition today.


southpark, together with his partner (i so forgot his name, sorry!), our national champions, brought home a silver for singapore. well done boys! oh, and i get to snap a photo with them:

*i promise more photos of today! look out for em' :)

music: linkin park: what i've done

there are times when one likes to listen to a certain type of music just to be able to think or feel an emotion.

tonight, i choose this song. it doesn't stop playing on my laptop. i close my eyes and i breather deeply. i feel at ease for a moment, but then it all comes back in when i open my eyes. once upon a time, i had everything. i let them all go. i did everything wrong.



"for what i've done, i start again and whatever pain may come, today this ends, im forgiving what i've done, i'll face myself to cross what i have become, erase myself and let go of what ive done...'



i still wish for someone to be there to hold me close and make me smile. i wish for you, yes you, if you know who i am refering to.

JUST SO YOU KNOW, THIS FEELING'S TAKING CONTROL OF ME.
i want out out out!!!




narene that nut, gave me a (according to me) tampon like thingie with saga seeds which spelt my name on them. shhoo sweet (i know). i swear i could go up to her and just squeeze her cheeks. aaahahahahaha!!!!

teary eyed and screaming!

i guess what i am trying to say is that i took you for granted and only now i realize it.
i guess what i am trying to say is that i can't believe that you can move on when you were so down back then.
i guess what i want you to know is that i dont like to share, never.



so what if i am selfish, i dont really care i guess.
cos' this is how i really feel.



i think i like you still that's why.