hello wallies!

beach training! i loveeee :)

music: shayne ward: breathless

'you leave me breathless, you're everything in my life.
you leave me breathless, i still can't believe that you're mine.
you just walked out of one of my dreams.
so beautiful you're leaving me breathless.'

i'm starting to see my life getting back on track, with me smiling at whatever that's happening now.
i see more meaning to it all, with friends around.
i can't wait to go diving and i can't wait to me amazed by the little wonders that life can give.

xoxo

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY JOHANN!

dear johann, though i've known you for less than ayear, you've become an important person in my great friends list. you've always been there when i was down and needed someone. for everything, i thank you :) even so, i can't help but post up all these unglam photos of us. haha!
you always entertained my many retarded ways of posing for the camera. you always played along with me, no matter how stupid it was.
you see, even when i was grumpy, you'd take that daring chance to pose for a picture with me.
and for all that, i always let you cam-whored on your own with my camera!

you see how you always like to act 'ah beng'.
and you like to act nerdy also.
even after using the toilet you requested for a photo to be taken!
you and me after being sunkissed all day long when diving at tioman.and as much as you entertained my crap, i entertain yours too okay! this is one of our most decent shots.
you look like a typical malaysian 'ah pek'.
for all that you've done, (that includes choking me with swimming pool water during training) i forgive and i thank you. (haha!) you'll remain in my special list long time. here's to an everlasting friendship!

xoxo

8 august 2008.

another meet up for dinner with the work mates, this time around, to celebrate the august babies, jesse, sebastian and augustine. it was at clarke quay, brewerkz. where we made merry with food and beer. happy birthday jesse, sebby and august!

this is my favourite work mate gabriel: gabby!

six months i waited for you to be home from cheena country!so when are you coming back to work to drink green tea and eat pocky with me on tower huh??here we have gabby, dexter, curtis and sebby.the august babies! sebby, jesse and auggy.jesse and i.with you guysm i always feel young! (HAHA.) junlong and yeowei.and that's meimei, our aspiring doctor!curt you suck because you refuse to admit how much you've missed me.dex, curt and seb.stuffed with food and beer and they can still pose for me.hello champion surfer :)see the uncles! HEE!auggy likes to act cute just because he looks like barney.curt has a thing for gabby i swear.gab and mei.this is thomas, who left early because he had to erm...meet someone!sebastain ahs many nice names, for example, sebby crab.gab and dex.wah! not camera shy huhh!!jesse here, is a nurse in training.auggy, auggy, i have no clue as to what to call him, except purple dino who loves kids.thomas's food was horrible! the seafood was horrible, not fresh!after dinner, we all couldn't decide on where to go. anyhow, we ended up at some pub. see ya'll soon wallies :)

i wish my hair would faster grow.

happy holi-holidays!

it's early in the morning and i'm awake. happy holidays peeps, it's the beginning of a three weeks break.

plans for the day:
-meet chris for spine doctor's appointment at parkway
-ikea with longfei and chris (tampanies outlet)
-ride my bike back from chris's place

i feel lonely and i don't know why. last night i took mermaid on a long walk and it felt like an escape to me. away from troubles and deep thoughts. i wish you would all go away. i wish all of you never came in just to haunt me at the end of the way. my paper heart's bleeding. i don 't know how long; how much longer i have to wait for it to heal.

'it's not fair, how you are, i can't be complete. can you give me more? and all i know is, you got to give me everything. nothing last, you know i'll give you all of me. i'll give you everything that i am, one minute of everything that i've got. cos' i want to have a really true love, don't wanna have to give you up. stay up till 4 in the morning and the tears are pouring and i wanna make it worth the fight. what have we been doing for all this time? baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right.'

xoxo

Dear Japo Boyfriend,

Happy 20th Birthday!
Please be less horny and add a little more brains into that empty shell of yours.
Also, stop lying to yourself that you would wake up and start jogging to keep fit.
Nevertheless, i love you long time :)

xoxoJIN

perhaps love isn't in my dictionary.

for you, i know i gave my all and i never screwed anything up.
for you, i told myself that no matter how miserable i was, i would never let you down.
for you, i was trying to be perfect, i did everything right.


but you took it all away.
i just want you to know you were the one i tried so hard to keep and pleased cos' i trusted.

music: aaron carter: i'm all about you

i wish you'd sing the song to me.

music: the postal service: sleeping in

a good book by me.

tea by me.

good music with me.

seems like a day in my life that i've missed. what completes it all is a text message from you that makes me smile. i'm a happy child now :)

i feel so free, no rushing, non at all. 

hardwork has been over and done with and i feel the need for a break.

said no to work today and suddenly i feel like i should have just went to work.

waited a whole day at home and i wonder if it even matters to you.

bum around in the end, watching videos and reading quite abit. napped in the noon too.

this is a lifestyle i never dreamt of. i don't think i wanna get use to it either.

i'd be glad to go back to my busy way of life, but would it matter to you?

i have thoughts that maybe god is doing all this on purpose to me, for taking too many things for granted. he wants me to learn, i get it alright.

i feel alone, and i don't like it at all.

but your simple textes makes my day and make me have faith :)

keep coming back home ok?