music: natasha bedingfield: angel

'just like a shadow, i'll be beside you, i'll be your comfort, i'm there to guide you home.

i will provide you a place to shelter.
i wanna be yours.

i'll make you great to be a man, a woman who can stand on every promise given, making vows to please a man.

if i could be your angel,

protect you from the pain.

i'll keepy you safe from danger,

you'll never hurt again.

i'll be your a-n-g-e-l.'

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i know it's like mid week wednesday now but i would once again like to say that yet another weekend has just whizzed by me, just like that, with a snap of my fingers. haha. yea. friday night was to wala wala at holland village to supposingly celebrate kim's 19th birthday but i pretty much just remembered stting on high stools and gluing my gaze at the cute local boy band that was singing and playing their way to my h-e-a-r-t. it didnt even occured to me that i had left without finishing my drink at all can. anyways, happy belated kimo. i love you muchies because all we do nowadays is to lie on your condo's pool deck chairs and bitch the night away. oh yea, and always bear in mind that erm...i really left secondary school days behind me!!! Hence, half the time you are the one reminding me about what had happened then. what the heck la...you should know what's happening either way since NYP has like the whole HS cohort there. HEE! omg.happy 19th munchkins :)eeewww...ghost! daniel, kimberly, me and lynn.

oh, rachelle joined us too. uh-huh, little miss super uber fierce and fair rachelle from rp. haa! (i bet you'll scold the living day lights out of me when you see this) and since we had to buy a drink each to enter wala wala, she decided to be smart la...as usual...and she totally bought a drink in which she had no clue what it was at all....'test tube baby'. i think she chose that drink because of its name can. so act cute. omg. when she actually got her drink, she looked at me with that look and took forever to gather her guts to gulp it down. it was just a shot and watching her sniff at it made me so digusted that i just had to smell it for myself. it smelled really buttery to me...i have no clue why..haha...anyways, i'm glad i didnt choose the same drink as her since the shot looked so much like tequila which i detest.

outside still, queuing for our turns to buy our stupid drinks and enter wala wala.there! there! her 'test tube baby'!you are about to witness rachelle 'downing' her dreaded (for some reason) shot.prepping up...taking a deep breath.steady...and go!

now this is where i was asking her how red i was cos i felt so 'hot'. ok, so this was how red i was...they say i have good blood circulation.the ying and the yang. obviously i'm the black and she's the white la.i was sober ok.

after leaving wala wala, we couldnt decide if we were hungry because somehow, we became immune to how our stomachs were feeling and we dragged our feets around holland v for abit cos according to us, we didnt exactky hang out at that area and we were clueless as to what we could and wanted to eat. in the end, we settled for nydc.omg, real ghost behind me can.this is my friend, rachelle.omg cookie monsta is so cute i wanna rape him and then bring him home.yes honey, this is holland v and i dont really see why you have to take a picture. i motherf___ing swear that i have to go change my posb card cos it gives me tart problems.

while waiting for a cab home, rach got freaked out when she heard noises coming from the playground.

saturday morning was fliming for bryan j's fyp team at mark nicholas's friend's flat in toapayoh and then rushing down in the earlt afternoon for training at sentosa in which i ended up tanning because everyone else was lazing around. i then headed down to ite simei where b was helping out in some swimming competition for his swim school kids.i envy the kids can. their parents can actually be bothered to support them through out. so enthu...just look at them cheer theri kids on. thinking back when i was younger, my mom wasnt even keen on me swimming so much and all she did when she broughtme for swim classes, was to sit at the stands and talk to the rest of the mothers. the kids were all so young, small in size and cute. what more, they paraded the pool with costumes and trunks that were of al colours and patterns. it was indeed, a sight.because it was raining and then shining, there was a rainbow...can you see it?

just by looking at the kids and their parents, really makes me feel all queasy inside, in a good way though. it makes me feel so jealous cos my parents were never there to support me at any competitions. They never had glowing faces and wide smiles when i brough home medals and they were never there to cheer me on. it was really nice to just stand and watch as these parents get all excited about their kids competing and planting kisses on their foreheads each time they finished at event. at the same time, it made me feel so sad too....my my, times have really changed hasnt it?

tomorrow, or rather, today, in a couple of hours, i'll be having UT3 for leisure organisations and issues. so fast huh...soon it'll be UT4 and soon poly days will be long gone. omg i'm so scared.

xoxo

'but my love is all i have to give

without you, i don't think i could live

i wish i could give the world to you

but love is all i have to give'

i've decided to soar and set free (if you know what i mean). i wanna be carefree. i guess i had that sudden thought that if one doesn't stress and think till their brain pops, everything would naturally fall into place. hence, i'll dish you, you and you. i'll smile really nicely and say a big hello to ya'll. i'll convince myself that i deserve so much more and the past is what we were made to go through in life in order for a better tomorrow.

yes yes, i'm gonna morph into marilyn monroe because i'm tired of doing everything for people whom don't even know that i am caring. for once, i wanna be in that limelight and be a bimbo who couldn't care less.


xoxo

'quit playing games with my heart

i should have known from the start'

music: natasha bedingfield: pocket full of sunshine

being fat, unfit and unglam sure is depressing. i've been making an effort, but apparently it ain't good enough still. and omg i was looking at my thighs just the other day in the mirror and i nearly fainted and die. geez...i need some serious work out; one that requires me to put on my almost new looking asics to run a million yards. you know what's worst? guess what happened during the weekend.

yesterday was a sudden plan change from crocs sale at the expo to the food fair next door at hall 4.

singaporeans really live up to their name; 'kiasu'.

we queued so long just for popiah which cost us $2. and there was this cheena pok woman behind me whom i swear didn't know how to stand in line just like everyone else. seesssh!

the process of chomping down 'that pao like thing with meat in the middle' while in the queue for another good food.

i said: 'i queue here and you go look around some more.'

food, who can resist it's temptation?

xoxo <3

i just feel like being random laa....

i swear i put in effort in today's class...and that would of course include my powerpoint slides as well.

rp's library is pretty cool cos' i always seem to be able to find dvds to watch. i'm totally geared up for a quiet lonely friday night in bed with milo.

i got itchy fingers and decided to paint my nails and and...play with my camera of xxx years.

guess who's star i stole: minhui

and as i was watching tv, i saw this guy who reminded me of yeowei. i droped him an sms and omg...it's been months since like we last met or spoke but he's still the same can.as much as my ipode shuffle died on me after two years plus, it contains many special memories. but anyways, it made way for my new black ipod classic (ok la, not new already since it's been awhile). whatever the case, i must say that i am very proud of myself for being an owner of my handy phone cos' it's coming to almost a year old. i really doubt that i've ever used a phone for this long before without changing. guess i found the love of my life. lol.

tomorrow and sunday spells w-o-r-k for me and i don't know whether to be happy or not. this is my handy friend for the two years that i've been working at sentosa. you know what's so special about it? it gloes in the dark. HAHAHA!