to forgive and forget.

is that really possible? i bumped into a friend today, one in which brought back memories i should say. pleasant or not...i wonder? anyways, it was really to my surprise that i saw you. i felt nothing, it was just like 'D***O?!!' i had wanted to just stop and wait at the corner for you cos' you were working and was approaching someone at that time. but you merely said a 'erm...sorry.' to that person and talked to me instead. i found it pretty funny, the way you did it. haha. yea. i could swear that the conversation we had was totally unglam, at the entrance of bishan mrt...now how cool can that be huh? ya know, i could tell how surprise you were as much as i was. seriously, is god playing tricks on us? i mean, i'm no christian or whatsoever but i never ever thought that i would ever see you again. thinking back, i don't exactly know how we started our friendship to how it became the way it is now. i'm quite sure of one thing though, we met at work and along the way i got upset and disappointed and then i moved on and then you came back into the picture and then someone lost some trust issues in me cos' of i'm quite sure you. there after, i can't remeber how i felt but i think i lost it. perhaps at that point in time, in my life at least, i thought you were the worst asshole i've ever met..boy was i really wrong. so now, you can safely take yourself off my 'not to date/ extremly dangerous to date' guys. haha..yea.



i guess my point is, can one really forgive, forget and forgo whatever that has happened. they say that once it's broken, it can never be mended. i believe in that but can things be improved? dammit, i know i have trust issues ever since so must crap has happened but i wish someone can really prove me wrong one day. i never wanted to make enemies but friends. even if something is over, is it not possible to start over as friends? some say that it really is better to stay away forever but i guess i beg to differ. for me, some have become friends, distant friends that is and some have become..well, complicated?


i wanna let so many into my heart but i wanna keep that special place just for you now. be cool?