Back off.

Hiatus.

I feel like the need to break away from my social network called....friends.

Quit judging me for every single damn thing.

So damn tired of people saying I take so long to finish my studies and it's a waste of time and money blah blahh

So freaking annoyed of people telling me I'm not good enough, I'm too fat too short too fair too whateverr

So fucking irritated that people don't take me seriously and think I don't take myself seriously.

I am so fucking pissed off and disappointed in everyone. What everyone of you do not realize is that all these judgement is killing me bit by bit inside.

I am starting to question myself. Who am I? Am I lost, at a stand still suddenly?

I am therefore going, going gone.

In a world full of humans, I am one. I am small and my living presence will probably not make a huge impact to many. 

But yet, people strive to achieve and create differences in the lives of others. I am one of that many. 

Is it only normal that humans are put into this living world to only want to leave behind their footprints when they leave this world?

Angst.

'That's the thing about people, they only focus on the things you do badly at.'

I've always been the joke in the group, the one whom people poke fun of. I've always been the unpretty one amongst my friends, the one that's too short, too fat, too loud and what not. I've grew up having people not really taken me seriously at all and I've always felt inferior to them. It's like the people around me constantly think that I am not good enough and I will forever not be better than them.

I guess with all that said and felt, I am lucky to not have fallen into a hell hole of depression and become a weak, lack of confidence introvert person. Thank goodness that within myself, somehow somewhere I had the unconscious strength to keep going and not break apart.

25 years and today I've decided that I will not tolerate being nothing. I've been growing up towards being someone with a goal and a dream. I will not let anyone tell me that I am not good enough. Yes, I may not be the world's smartest person and ace all my exams or not fail in anything but to me, the process, the path I've gone through has taught me a lot and shaped me to be who I am today. I have a story to tell, do you? Or is yours just another photocopy perfect book like everyone else? 

I think that I am my own best judge. I don't exactly go around telling the entire universe what my aspirations are and what is it that I want to do with my life. But that doesn't mean that I don't have anything worth while in my life going on.