"Babe.

All the experiences from the best ones to the suckiest ones brings you somewhere in life. You may not know how right now but someday you're gonna look back and be glad you made the decisions you make and felt the way you feel. You know very well that life's a bitch and we just gotta roll with the punches. You don't have to hide your emotions. If you're upset, be upset and if you're angry, be angry. Cos trust me babe, it'll go away someday sooner or later.

You're already 21 and you have so much to live for. Screw heartbreaks and boys and girls. Have fun. You have the awesomest friends around you. I read your blog. Every person left a footprint in your life one way or another. IF it fades, it fades. You have a million more footprints to cherish.

Loves many many.

Paris. (im never letting this name go)"

you make it hard to see.

i ought to be the next happiest person on earth because my exam was just over yesterday. i should be grinning from ear to ear and doing every other thing that i had supposingly planned out while desperately mugging for my paper. but no, i was tired out, i had a headache, i just wanted to go home and snuggle in bed with myself.

i think i saw you there and then and i started to realise that i have been avoiding these feelings and emotions all along. it was because i never thought i had to see you again and i thought i moved on. i dont know why i am feeling this way but n i wished we dont have to avoid each other. it hurts and i know it shouldnt. i remember how we ended, i remember how i was and it isnt something that i am proud of and want to hold on to. i grew up in the years that went by but i guess you lingered at the back of my mind. im afraid i still feel too much.

the people that had actually left footprints all over my life are perhaps the people who have created impacts big enough for me to spare them some brain cells and talk about them here. so many stupid mistakes i made and so many regrets that i wished i could take back and undo. i grew up, i know better than anyone else and it's really time i show it.

i want time alone today. im looking forward to spending time to my favourite friend now.

mi ish lub u deep deep mani mani nong nong time.

the all too familar feeling of muscle aches and soreness, bruises that appear unconciously and the dehydration that makes me wanna drink up non stop.

this is pure pleasure.