i'll love you for the rest of my life.

i take moments to stop and reflect. i take moments to be quiet and think to myself about my life and the people in it. these moments i have take me back a long way, to days when i was a child, usually the happy moments. i've been blessed with a great family. an elder brother for me to squabble and be crazy with and parents who have never demanded anything out of me. they are supportive in subtle ways and i know they do their best to give me everything they can. though not always being expressive and having a whole lot of communication, but in their little ways and gestures, i know they love me and are proud of me. i liked when mom tells me how dada had wanted a daughter and they tried hard to have me. somehow it makes me feel special. i love when he picked his guitar up and sang back in the days. i would sit and listen, looking at him and now i realize how soulful it all was, like it was his own words to me. i liked when he picked my clothes out on saturday mornings before we headed out. i missed being daddy's little girl. there really is nothing at all that i would want to change about how i was brought up. listening to classics and dancing along standing on the feet on my dad, all these heartfelt memories i treasure for the rest of my life.

ted ted TEDDY!

Just my belated birthday present from some awesome team mates <3 haha.

you don't bother me no more kennychong.

Seriously, I don't care at all about you anymore. You've never been there and only appear when you needed me around. I've always been the last resort and as much as I was stupid enough to have cared and done so much for you for too long, it doesn't matter anymore because I have found someone who treats me like gold. Someone who has made me realize how it actually feels like to be loved and appreciated. He actually respects me and genuinely cares. I am truly happy and I'm sure I have finally made a right and best decision. I don't need your comments or blessing, nothing at all from you. For awhile now, I have let go, let go of you and everything we once upon a time had. I'll never regret getting rid of you, out of my life. It's been great, it's been fabulous. I choose to believe that I got the last laugh.   

1st.

Happy 1st my lover boy, you've been such a joy to be with.

music: jennifer lopez: dance again

you win some and you lose some. there are ups and there are downs in life. i've seen worst days and i've seen better ones. i've been there and done all that. i've tried and i've tasted. i've question and i've wasted. you make me happy and there's no doubt about it.