23rd of august, wednesday.

the last day of school for semester one.
the last day where W26G will be together.
the last day for teasing people like iLi, Phabhu, etc.
the last day where we can gossip about the same few people in class.

i love you all wallies.

i can't imagine life without you sweeties.

to all my wallies :)

i'm going to penang tonight.

lifesaving competition.

again.

take care while i'm gone.

bleah.

if anyone reads this.

teehee.

ciao!

thought.

i ain't missing you.
someone came along.

teehee :)

butterflies in my tummy.

tomorrow, open water championships.

i should be sleeping.
i really should.

i've got butterflies in my tummy.
i want that medal so badly.
i want to laugh at my RP coach so badly.
i want all my hardwork to be paid off.
i want the people around me to appreciate and be proud of me.
i want you.

tell me something i want to hear.
or maybe let me cry all my sorrows away.

let me do well.
let me win.

i once had someone to hold but i let it all slip away.
now, i am holding on to all that i have gained.

ciao people.

tomorrow, a day of competition.

thoughts, random.

how come everytime you come around,
my london london bridge wanna go down?

you ain't gonna have a shot with me no more.

on this day...

met up with jesse and jinyi.

he droved.

i met him first at j8.

we then picked jesse up and went to serangoon gardens for dinner.

ended up eating cafe cartel.

hmm...

it's been sometime eh.

i miss you so.

tsk tsk.

or maybe i miss your mommy's car.

i'm always in the front seat, never the back!

thanks mate for the erm...tampon casing from erm...america.

lol.





the last day i was seeing my cognitive facilitator.
she's gonna have to go bring her lovely baby girl into the world.
oh yea...that reminds me, ms serene's baby is so adorable!
princess ella as she is known to us is the sweetest thing.
pretty pretty pretty...

i like freking cried twice today.
sshheesshhh...
one was about mommy and i.
i don't wanna talk about it though.
i'm so sick.
then there was the bad news from uncle quek that two of my individual events (canoe and surfing race) had been cancelled because there could only be one person from one team in an event.
dammit.
i was so sad and was crying buckets!
my whole class knew what was wrong and Melvin, (the guy next class) was so sweet as to offered a listening ear.
gee..thanks mate!
anyway, screw SLSS.

"unpretty"

unpretty is when you see Jin quiet.
it's when you see her keep to herself.
it's when you see her straing into space.
it's when you see her smile and it all looks fake.
it's when she keeps talking about how upset she feels.
it's when she tells you how she will get over it.
unpretty is what she feels now and maybe for the other days to come.

quit speaking.

human minds work in a complicated manner.
dang.

have i been fooled?
or maybe it was for real.
like when it was last september.

he whom i once so adored.
he whom we had so much plans together.
ggeee...

will i feel like that again?
kim says "duhh!!! what?? you wanna be a nun???!!!"
tsk tsk.
that girl never fails to make me laugh.

and i never thought i would be sitting down lost in my own train of stupid relationships thoughts again.
this guy has got me.
sshheesshh...somebody get me outta here.

teehee.
and then i told kim, "i'm so tired of all this loving."

thoughts during math module

math class.
back to visual basics.
ssheesshh....
boohoo...

seven eleven's milo is yummy.
keeps me awake all the time.
haha.

listening to the radio.
breakout one.

reflecting on my used to be happier days.

mommy and daddy are breaking apart.
i aint sure if they love me and my brother.

oh, bro's outta the country.
USA.

i'm screwed.

mermaid's innocent.
her puppy eyes tells me she's confuse.
don't worry baby.
moomy's gonna love you a lifetime.

it's like a bomb ticking away.

i'm speechless and clueless.

i feel stupid.

i feel eager to soar and you are pulling me down.

gee...you were like anyone of them.

dedicated to you.

and i thought you were different.

why'd you have to make me feel unpretty?

don't go chasing waterfalls.

uniquely me.

or so i think.

not to others.

but just me.



i guess i've become so dumb after being in a long relationship.
i can't seem to see right from wrong anymore.
i've been naive and it's killing.

what do i want and what do i need?
i let a good boy go.
there is no turing back.

is it so hard to be in love?
yet it is easy to get cheated.

i might as well take a turn and back out of all this.
just do what i do best, drama.
smile for you all.

i'm happy, if you believe it.

don't tell me something you don't mean.

my image is ruin.
it has been for awhile and still is.
everyone wants only one thing outta me.

i don't wanna do this anymore.

good night and i'll be praying i don't crumble.