to finally be feeling like how i was way back while i was younger and in school, to finally feel the rush of excitement each time my phone rings or when i see you, the feeling is priceless. never knew i would get this feeling again, never did i think i would ever find anyone who would make me all nervously happy and excited all over again. it's old school, it's a warm fuzzy feeling, it's nice, sweet and adorable, it makes me go weak at the knees and smile endlessly to myself. it makes me feel hopeful, makes my worries go away and all i really wanna do is just kick off my shoes and lie by you, snuggle up to you and not have to worry or think about tomorrow at all. you make me feel wanted, you make me feel insecure, you make me feel like you care and you make me feel annoyed and confused too. but it's young love isn't it? didn't i feel this way back then? but then there's so much more to think about now that i am growing up. so much to worry and so much to plan. i hate it, i really do. i just wanna do what my heart tells me to and live with no regrets. but it is reality and there are consequences to face. i would try really, i always am that girl who takes that leap of faith anyways, but i don't think i can do this alone this time around so if you are willing, i would let you help me but if you decide that you won't, i will not fight for you because if this was worth it, i won't have to make any decisions at all. i won't hurt and i won't have to worry. i'll be happy instead. don't go breaking my heart like how everyone else did.