i am everything i am beause you love me mom and dad.

i'd like to believe that i am doing something so different from what my genes tell me that i am made for. i'd like to believe that i dont want to settle for normal but to push the limits and always be better.

but it's so so hard. i am at my wits end. i am so scared that i'll never get anywhere. i am afraid to let go and tell anyone. i am unwilling to give up but this burden is too heavy.



i am sinking.