i was so scared when i woke up hearing you vomitting so hard and loud. it reminded me so much of when i was down with virus fever for a whole week and i thought i was dying. it also reminded me of when popo said goodbye to us for the last time before she left home for the hospital and never came back. i was so scared kor. i really was. i felt lost. and for the first time in a long while, i felt so much like when i was your kid sister again back when we were younger and closer. i've always wanted you to know that i love you so much and i've always looked up to you as my elder brother.