dear jon, i was at kovan today and although it's been 7 months since we broke up, i had that rush of sadness all too suddenly. everywhere had memories. it was painful at that moment. i felt the tears building up. i felt the urge to hold your hand again.

and i questioned myself again if i am alright, if i have have healed and move on.

dear jon, i took you so seriously. i loved like no other and i cared like i never did before. i dont want answers or explanations anymore. i know it was a fairytale that was never meant to happen. i just want you to know that it cut like a knife. it was real and i never felt such vivid pain before.

dear jon, i had so much to deal with and to heal from. the wound will always remain but it's better now. i'll still be here by you when you need a friend. i dont care if you ever bother anymore but i just wish you'd know how i really feel about us.

dear jon, p.s. i loved you.