funny how a simple letter or an email you receive can mean so much doesn't it? words can stirr up so much emotions and it can really tear you apart. really, the power that words can contain amazes me sometime. the meaning it an carry and how it is crucial to the human lives for me depend so much on it for everything to work. words.
it got me so down one too many times. now now, you've done it again. i've failed my PPT for NIE and i am truly shocked. i couldn't believe it, not at all. i read the email......like over and over again, refusing to believe what i saw but it didn't change things. i failed. i know im not a very 'know-it-all/ everything-also-can-do' athlete, but i never thought i'd be so bad and receive only a 'conditional pass' for majority of the stations. sigh! it's like my ego got bruised. i feel so unfit and useless suddenly. like, i can never do sports again. i'm truly upset and disappointed. griefing and deeply depress.
my hopes for NIE once upon a time looked all mighty and bright but now it's all dashed and perhaps throw aside. i'm not good enough. it's in my face now and i can't hide or deny. i never thought i was that bad but maybe i just am.
life; and the unfairness of it all.
2 comments:
It's not the end, Jin. One door closes is another door opens.
Don't give up in what you have passion with. Just complain and whine for a few days.
Then after that, never carry that feeling with you. But carry the lesson learnt.
:) thanks! see i always knew you weren't all that mean to me. hee!
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