music: beyonce: best thing i never had

i'll be the best thing you never had. for all that you have put me through, i believe in karma. what goes around comes back around.

you know you really disappointed me. but i cant explain why or how. you just did. i am upset now, i really am. this little mind of mine doesn't think simply, it thinks way too much. go figure.

music: one republic: good life

because i feel horrible tonight and i need a reminder of how wonderful life can be.

I have diligently sat down and sorted out my school and coaching stuff out. I counted the remaining modules I have left in school to take and it scares me now to really sink in and realize that I am half way done. It scares me that I have a choice now to either do my professional practice or not. I guess I could use 2 months to sort my life out, focus on coaching and take a break but part of me feels like i need something new to spark me on. it could change me, it could be what i need to spur myself on and feel the passion once again. i'm sitting on the fence and i need an answer soon. and sometimes, i wish i had someone to guide me to organize my coaching career path. it's always like i'm in the middle and all messed up. i need admin work done badly.

i could be gay all my life when i listen to adam lambert's songs.

One man in his time plays many parts.

-William Shakespeare

a feeling so extreme.

i find in me the inspiration to pen down my thoughts, emotions and goals.

i find in all of you the drive to inspire myself to press on harder and achieve better.

i turn to memories which we created as a team to keep me going on, to get me back up from the dumps and to fight on. i turn to the strength we gave one another to remind me that i am not alone and that i have a team who keeps the faith and will be there no matter.

i call you my team now, will always be, i hope you guys think and feel the same way too. this team right here gave me a fresh new beginning to see everything in a brand new light.

this team i love now, team singapore arafura 2011.

wish you never grow up.

oh darling don't you ever grow up;

just stay this little.