"i belong to me
i don't belong to you
my heart is my possesion
i'll be my own reflection"

"stoning" day in school.

music: akon: don't matter

i feel restless and i hadn't exactly felt like doing anything.
god, save me. dang!
i can't let today slip away.

on the good side, i'm starting to realise the madness in shuan.
swweeettt...wait till sam and rach hears this!!!

i feel numb and i kinda feel like i'm losing myself.
in all different ways.

i'm looking foward to every trainings, perhaps it is a get away.

god, presentation started.

ciao

i really don't understand baby.

we spoke and you still feel the same, but your thinking ain't right no more.
what's love when you can't love a person?

i remember when you had pierced a third ear hole with me babe. i love it totally, but unfourtanetly it had to close.
i loved your scent always and how i loved to hug you close and sniff you.
i remember how we always play my stupid cell phone game and try and beat each other.

it's the little things baby.
don't you still want them?

i loved how you always make me smile while you act like a kid.

what goes around, will it come back around?

if doing so much doesn't work, that what was the point?

you say you don't wanna pull me down but i said it was ok.

why don't you listen?

now it's all gone.

yet again, i am alone.

i don't wanna be in the game of love anymore.

it's tiring and painful.

maybe i'll just play around or perhaps, just be selfish.

i don't ever wanna know that girl that i once was.

the happy one with the smile.

now i just wanna curl up and die.

so as i sat in the cab home, i watched your neughbourhood pass me by.

the last time, i touched your favourite quicksilver sweartshirt.

the last time i snuggled up under your comforter in your bed .

the last time i felt your breath so near me.

the last time i held you so close.

goodbye memories and hello my lonely life :/

i am speechless and my teary eyes won't stop flowing.

i am so tired.

maybe, i'll go do laps and then i'll find peace because i am alone.

i don't want to be bothered.

what is love now and where do i go from here?

monday baby :)

we had trials for the year ones today.
THANK YOU jonathan for the help for the waterpolo peeps! XD lovelove.
it was hella cool.
let's hope it works out.

music: JIBBS: chain hang low