so i guess i've got my life back in an organizer book once again. Thursday, July 30, 2009
music: pussycat dolls: watcha think about that
so i guess i've got my life back in an organizer book once again. Friday, July 24, 2009
thoughts before heading to blopping land.
if i never find the right person to believe in me and respect me, i wish i would become like MJ and create great change and influences in the world.
if i were to ever get lost, i wish i would keep the faith and trust in myself to go on.
dear b, i hope you will grow to love me because it feels so empty. what happened now. will the happier times where you made me feel wanted come back? will you still care about my most private thoughts in this blog?
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
music: will.i.am: heartbreaker
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Thursday, July 02, 2009
seriously i cant explain the tears for you, MJ.
make it a better place
for you and for me
and the entire human race
there are people dying
if you care enough
for the living
make a better place
for you and for me'
you're thinkin
about my baby
it dont matter if you're
black or white'
Monday, June 29, 2009
the legendary king of pop; michael jackson.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
what's left to do now.
Thursday, June 04, 2009
all the world's a stage, and all men and women; merely players.
Friday, May 29, 2009
when the future ahead seem so......bleak
funny how a simple letter or an email you receive can mean so much doesn't it? words can stirr up so much emotions and it can really tear you apart. really, the power that words can contain amazes me sometime. the meaning it an carry and how it is crucial to the human lives for me depend so much on it for everything to work. words.
it got me so down one too many times. now now, you've done it again. i've failed my PPT for NIE and i am truly shocked. i couldn't believe it, not at all. i read the email......like over and over again, refusing to believe what i saw but it didn't change things. i failed. i know im not a very 'know-it-all/ everything-also-can-do' athlete, but i never thought i'd be so bad and receive only a 'conditional pass' for majority of the stations. sigh! it's like my ego got bruised. i feel so unfit and useless suddenly. like, i can never do sports again. i'm truly upset and disappointed. griefing and deeply depress.
my hopes for NIE once upon a time looked all mighty and bright but now it's all dashed and perhaps throw aside. i'm not good enough. it's in my face now and i can't hide or deny. i never thought i was that bad but maybe i just am.
life; and the unfairness of it all.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
take one last look and then say goodbye...forever.
xoxo
Saturday, May 16, 2009
music: backstreet boys: all i have to give.
'but my love is all i have to give...'
having gotten my rejection letter from NTU, i feel dejected now. my only hope would be to receive a letter from NIE stating for an interview. i hope, i pray, its really draining, stressing and super taxing. my mind and soul may seem clueless and careless but deep down its annoying the shit outta me. i cant help but think aimlessly at what and where my future is heading. i want that space so bad in NIE. i really do. i even dyed my blond hair black :(
Thursday, April 09, 2009
music: gwen stefani: the real thing
Saturday, March 28, 2009
music: lady gaga: just dance
lately, i've been feel lousy in a way. worried about uni applications, worried about my LS class, worried about letting myself and you down...the list goes on really. sigh! i seem to be falling into that pit hole again.
the mini get away over the weekend did me a little good or not. i had sufficient rest and when next week comes i kinda hope that things would magicaly be perfect and great again.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
music: something corporate: konstantine
Monday, February 16, 2009
to this thing called love, screw you.
Thursday, January 08, 2009
2009, behold!
over this period of time, this is what had happened in short:
(1)my camera totally died
(2)my cell died too and then it got replaced and got stolen in the most retarded way
(3)i did not have a very happening xmas nor new year
(4)i worked very well with my fyp II homies and im hella pleased with everyone
(5)i made new year resolutions and i am swearing by it
(6)everyone now knows i got my first ink and they're all laughing about it
(7)im a changed woman...yes, woman alright.
i'll be back for so much more.
xoxo
Friday, December 26, 2008
Thursday, December 18, 2008
last week of school before the xmas break!
my locker at work. i just had to choose the one right at the top even knowing that i was so short. then again, i wasn't given much of a choice because back then some people thought they were damn right superior and could own two lockers. (insert rolling of eyes here.) and right now, i'm too lazy to switch already cos everything is done up and placed nicely. however, i have wondeful work mates like nicola who got me a green stool from ikea in case i couldn't reach all the way back to my locker. (whatever man nic, i can each ok! i just have the habit of tiptoing each time i take stuff in and our from my locker.) haha. on another note, shiqin peeked in today and said she was amazed at how i was actually very organised and neat. :D i don't know why she always has this habit of messing her hair up before posing for a shot.
in an attempt to capture a good shot, we got this. haha.
i swear sam and i check outed a number of tattoo shops that day and all the artists said that any tattoo would start from $50, even if it were just a dot. stop laughing at me for spending 50 bucks on my tattoo cos' i'd rather pay to be safe than sorry. besides, i hadn't been to an artists who's a friend or like a friend's friend. maybe then i would have gotten a cheaper rate or something.
10 december, wednesday.
to the zoo it was, for our leisure module. i have no clue why but apparently, it was to be part of ut4 or something. harlalooya to those who didn't went, which was many actually. i was the 'class rep' for my own class and the turn out was pathetic. of a class of twenty something, it was bad enough that inly ten plus signed up for this trip. what made it worst was that only five of us turned up. kenneth!
jansher khan!
this was the diputs (spelled backwards) monkey/ gorilla/ ape or whatever it was creature that was happily climbing along the tree vines and stopped halfway to pee down to the ground where everyone was walking. i nearly, nearly i say, got drenched in its pee. yuck.
we were split into two groups, and my group had chosen to go tp listen to a talk on 'scaly encounters' which in order words, was simply getting a backstage pass to see, feel and hear about the snakes.
the snakes in the room where we were brought to were suppose to be sick or something.
we had a guide and i think he's name was kit. here luke getting his one minute of fame. haha.
poor turtle, brutually murdered so young.
did you know that the turtle's spine is like stuck to its shell. it grows on the shell.
this confiscated 'ointment' (from vietnam) which has a snake stuffed inside, supposingly helps and cures people of any illness/ injuries and etc. humans can be so cruel.
when you get bitten by a snake, this could save you.
oh and then he took one of his 'friends' out to show him off to us all.
hello sick snakies.
these were the other sick scally creatures.
after the whole talk, imran, andruew, luke, saburi and me took awhile to check out the zoo map before deciding that we were too hungry and lazy to tour the entire zoo. while making out way out if the zoo, there were of course distractions (and with that i mean the animals) that apparently made the guys 'ohh and ahh' at the cute creatures. but finally, we ,made it out and im drove us all to ponggol to have lunch. there after, saburi and i headed to andruew's house because the idiots wanted to play guitar hero (andruew is better than saburi!) and i fell asleep on the couch with saburi sitting on my feet cos' i was cold.

i met dawn later on and we made dash in time for sake sushi buffet before it ended. since 530pm was like the last order, the both of us got to carried away and anxious that we ordered too much and ended up stuffing food into the soft drink cans and any available plastic bags that we could find. i swear, my friend here, is an expert in doing this. haha!
11 december, thursday.
simon's class today and it was awesome, simply a ball of a time. we had a mini class party and it was just like pot luck where most people contributed and brought food to class. also, we had a gift exchange in which according to simon, each and everyone's present had to be at least five dollars. as much as lesson had went on and every team had still did up a powerpoint presentation, third meeting was all about games! everything that happened in class was all about celebrating christmas :)my gift from chloe, jelly beans. i seriously wish i could wrap so nicely.
all that food.
all those stuff filled faces. hee!
the 'nacho' boys. we are not going to hell because we all paid twelve bucks for nachos in which the cash would be donated to charity.
'cock and bull story'.
there were the games where simon said now he knew why we were graduating cos' our drawings and acting skills were so bad but we were still able to guess it right. geniuses. haha!
another reason why i love jas. she does the silliest things sometimes.
simon unwraping his gift by sam. its (he) said to be passed down as a gift from one mother to another before landing in his hands...but not for long cos' the cycle shall continue (according to him).
i've got so much more to say but seriously if i continue the entries here, i will die from all this uploading of pictures. thus, i shall stop right here and i'll be back, with more...
xoxo